Good read #1

Tak percaya. Cried reading this book ( Seksi Ovari, Fazleena Hishamuddin ) How much it can relate me in every way, in every little things happened to me lately. Thank you to that person who made me feel unwanted and lost myself inside me. Cause all i want is just to be true and right for myself and maybe you?

It had been a hella of 10 months in Melaka. Taught me a lot in every each corner of life and everything. ' bumi tarbiyah ' and now it all end. Yep more challenging out here, i must say. Strong is all you need to be. Be you and explore more!  

Its okay Dyana, dunia luar tu banyak lg kau tak explore. 

All i ever did was burden to people around me

Being a burden to everyone especially the loves one

Set me free. Let me learn bit by bit of life

That not all may understand

I want - Happiness. Pure happiness

Doesn't have to be luxury and so

Just all my loves one in one roof together smiling and laughter fills

May He fill mine with much love 

:(

What we see

What people see? In you or on things that you do? Severals of them sometimes are quite true if they do not judge or so ever. Positive thoughts towards people are more than enough. Just ignore the bad ones and keep going with our life cause what other people thinks are just opinion base on what they see and their experience. All human are not the same, doesn't have the same attitude and the list can go on. When you know people are looking and just wanted to know more about you, they'll do anything just want to fill that dying-to-know feeling. I can't tell much cause i'm also the one who are in the society today and doing the same thing ( observer )

Just having that one goal in your life and prioritise it everything will be just fine, inshaAllah :) Put up your target to Him, He'll surely guide you there. 

Amin ya rabb  

Redha

Pasrah dan redha

Perlu tu. Tak payah nak terhegeh hegeh. 

Kejar yg tak perlu dan bukan untuk kita. 

Buat apa susah susah?

Mungkin ini bukan untuk aku. 

Aku perlu usaha lebih kuat lagi. 

(( Kau kuat ke Dyana? ))

Kena. 

Kena kuat. Tak kira apa. 

Lalui ini dengan senyuman. 

Peh tak senang. 

Let it all go.

Let Him do his job and we just go with what we suppose to do. 

InshaAllah. 

Salam Ramadhan

Ramadhan is here. The 13th day already, ramadhan at a new place. With the new surrounding. Alhamdulillah all in all everything seems just fine. Syukur. People around are influencing me to be better in a way. Yes, it is a hell lot of different then my past ramadhan. This year is so so much more independent. Buy food for iftar by myself. Need to think what to eat, until i reach this one point that a sip of water just enough. Cause the foods here just ____ okay. Its not that it is lame or 'tak sedappp' its just emm i get bored with the food served here. Eventhough it is a cafe, cafe will be cafe. There's three cafe here in my college. Two for girls and one cafe for boys. It is not so clean, sorry have to mention it here though but the reality is it. Wtv it is, at the emd of the day, thank God for the food served, and my parents money so that i can buy food to eat here. So, be thankful in everything. Yet you think you have suffered much, there are more people out there had suffered more. الحمدلله

Chances

 What i 'm trying to put up is all just only base on what i'm going through or my friend's. Wherever we are heading to, there will always be a chance. A chance that what more or less good things will happen to us. InshaAllah. When there is more than one chances that has given to us, somehow it will be a good thing but to choose one it is not easy. It will not be easy. Its just that chances are not easy to get nor hard to lose it. 

Its just now one of my friend are in dilemma to choose either to stay here in matriks or go for mara. My advise to her is just go for mara even she's going to learn architecture because her passion is on arts but her ambition is to be a doctor. I hope she will make a good decision here. So pray for my friend. #IlhamFarhana 

Kita

Everybody is going away. Preparing for the next big step of their life. Hmmm. I'm happy for them. They achieved what they wanted. My very close friend is going away this september for 5 years in Mesir. Hope i can send him at the KLIA later. It was sad and happy at the same time that he had chose the best between two choices that he got. Eventhough we are big now and will be going through our separate ways. To explore whats more in this big world. 

Hope we both are going to the way that we need in future. InshaAllah. All is well. Amin. 

Sigh

Life without family? What? How it is going to be like living life in this spherical earth without them. My family. My mum and dad, my brother and sister. Sigh. I hope i won't forget or don't give much attention as i did now. I don't know how to express this. How much i really need all of them. Like really need them to motivate me all the time. Feed me with good food. Prepare me a comfortable place for me to shut my eyes calmly and feel safe. 

Suddenly i miss them so much because they came just now and visit me just for a while. Just about half an hour :( i miss them already. Really bad. The tough life here ( tough lah jugak ) make me miss them so so bad. Maybe its just that this one year that is going to be so much pressure and stuffs. Sigh. 

Ya Allah please take care and fill the house and them with much love and ofcourse rahman and rahim. InshaAllah.

And for me Ya Allah. Please give me strength to live here. 

Amin ya rabbalalamin :'(

 

Basketball #KMM

Alhamdulillah almost 2 and half week i'm here at KMM. It was okay. Okay. Haha. Thank God everything went so well. The lecture hall was not so big as i expected. So, ofc there are extra curicullar activities and my class was been given sports not club or uniform bodies. Thank god because we got sport but tettttt we got ping pong as our sport :( what to do. We must follow what had been given to us. After all, it was just going to be play and study during our 2 hour period cocurriculum activity every week 😃

Like the past years we had HKSBP since i was in Fully Residential School. Duhhhh and now i'm in matriculation college and we have KAKOM. It is similar to HKSBP but with more games. Athletics, volleyball and so many more, you name it but i don't think we have debate here. Hehe. So ofc i participate in basketball game inshaAllah. I gave my name to the team but only God knows i got in or not. Pray for me. Aminnnn. 

Oh the lecturers here are great and somehow look so young. Hehe ✌ 

Okay i'm done. Assalammualaikum 😘

KMM

Another phase of life. A new place. Starting a new fresh start. InshaaAllah. My first very offer to uni life is from Kolej Matrikulasi Melaka. I was so relieve and thankful to this oppurtunity. Didn't plan to really coming here. So, after the upu result is out, alhamdulillah i got a place in Uni Msia Pahang diploma in civil engineering. Eventually i don't really want to do civil and unfortunately that was my last choice. Last choice ofc it was the least interest that i put and i just din't want to go there and further my life thereand doing civil. Haha. Civil engineering?! So after a many times of talking and thinking session with mama and others, i chose matriculation as my next step of life to uni. 

So my i registered at matriculation on 27th of may. It was hectic and the traffic was so so. And the first person i searched was anis. Omg. Only God knows how i need my friends at that moment. After so many things had happenned to me before my journey to KMM. Okay wtv. 

Now, i'm here. Done my 4 days of orientation. Haha. Iykwim. Sabar je lahhhh. Tomorrow 3/6 is the first day of my class. I'm so nervous ofc. I'm taking module 1. Which is consist physic, chemistry, biology, and maths. Please pray for me :) 4.0 inshaaAllah amin. 

2013

Assalammualaikum :)

Okay lama dah tak post. So bak kata org ramai dah berhabuk. Tak de lah habuk mana pun.

So Alhamdulillah 2013 has come to its mid year. So much had happenned.
What happenned first and foremost is PLKN. It was a hell of great experience. I learned a lot in every aspect of life. I got the chance to meet so many type of people. Alhamdulillah. I also learned a lot from them. Although it was a 10 weeks camp, but so much just so so many things i learned from them because i was from all girls school so mereka ni yg sekolah campur telah membuka mata saya. Hehe. Emmm also got the chance to be friend with a lot of boys and learn about the point of view in life from their eyes. Yep it was a great experience. The friendship was ________ I couldn't find any words to describe it eventhough it was just for 3 months. InshaaAllah till jannah k guys :) Gang surau? Hahaha. Okay dah.


After PLKN had ended on 16th March 2013, i was so relieved. Relieved as every single responsibilities that i had to carry had ended.

There i go, lifeless. I got no job. I did nothing. All i know is go out and have fun. That was bad. I wasted every second of it. Org kata rehat but nahhh it was such a waste. So i just follow the flow of life. Thats it. Lesen pun takde. Hmmmm

Now i just have to wait for a call or letter that might come to my door step calling me to study. Hehe. If there is any. If not KTJ it is. ( so not going to happen, i hope ) but i got matrikulasi in Melaka. Science stream, that is going to be super hard for me but makcu said you just have to go through it. Life cycle en. Nak jd geologist sgt, science lah kena belajar. Okay... Big chances i'll be going to matriks to save money but its going to be tough for me. So redha je. Harapan saya adalah saya mendapat upu mana mana yg ada kena mengena dgn bidang yg nak diambil kelak dan saya minat untuk belajar. Ini lah nasib badan Dyana yg tak berapa bagus keputusan SPM nya. InshaaAllah. Pray for me ;)

Best Friend

This is her, Fatihahtul Hanan.

During MAKK 2012

I miss you nan, and always be you okay?

Jgn lupa aku. *ok ni tak pasal

What the juns said

Okay well this is what one of my junior tought about me. haha. Padahal kita baru mcm first time ckp kan hari tu? haha. Okay, nice to know you :)


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Just it

If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one. 

Because if you really loved the first one, you wouldnt have fallen for the second.

-Johny Deep

Taken this from Suraiya's blog ;)

True

Yes, thats me --

Thoughts

"And among His signs is that He created for you mates from among yourselves that you may dwell in tranquility with them, and He has put love and mercy between you; in that are signs for people who reflect." (Quran, 30:21)


I took this from Adda's.
 Someday..InsyaAllah, with God's will.

Feeling it inside

I dont know what is this feeling

i guess i need to stand on my ground stronger

God, pleaseeee.

Be strong Dyana!

We can't cross the border. Its wrong, i know. Pleaseeee bring me to the correct path. Thanks. 

AS

Kau tahu tak kau kwn yg banyak sedarkan aku walaupun kau tak ckp straight dekat aku. Tp aku faham sgt apa yg cuba kau sampaikan. Dlm diam aku sendiri telah berusaha untuk jadi lebih baik. Terima kasih banyak banyak :)

Vietnam Trip

Got nothing much to tell. So many things i go through during the trip. This time was a lil diff sbb i myself tak puas duduk rmh dah kena keluar lama lama 10 hari kot. but i think i learn lot this time, to appreciate Msia more and bla bla bla. Okay the thing is banyak kejadian accident berlaku, pelanggaran kereta apa van kereta segala bagai kenderaan lah. Lagiii, mimpi aku dekat Vietnam ni pelik2. 3 nights on train you knowww. Best i really enjoy that. pictures later k :)

write what the heart says

You-know-who-you-are,

Assalammualaikum :) Hi. okay here it goes. 

It happened last year, i don't know how or when or what but the feelings came by *cheesy. 

okay then out of no where i didn't know him, and he didn't know me. 

We click.

 I seriously don't know how and coincidentedly we're in the same group, kind of. okay wtv it is. 

I don't know how, i like you. Yes, i like you. Like, like adore you type. Maybe. 

And now its already been 1 year and something.

Some of my friends always said that, absence make heart grow fonder.

I think it is true for me, maybe.

I don't know why, although you are with somebody else but..

I don't know.

Its you, i think.

I'm sorry if i ever did annoy you or anything.

I need to know what you say. 

Tu je.

D

okay i need to get started back with this thang